Forever Undecided?

I don't know what it is, but I can never make up my mind.  I would much rather have other people choose for me.  I think part of it is that I don't really like taking the responsibility of everyone's happiness.  I would much rather everyone else be happy and I just tag along for the ride.  But, unfortunately, not everyone sees it that way.  And, alas, it can't be like that anyways.  Life is full of decisions and choices to be made.  And now that I'm at college, it's time for me to make those big choices and small choices.  I've found that it's sometimes the smallest of choices that make the biggest of differences.
I can choose to wear my hair curly or straight.  I can choose to wear the yellow shoes or the blue ones.  I can choose to eat spaghetti for dinner or eggs.  I can choose to stay at home and watch a chickflick or go out with friends.  I can choose to decorate my wall or leave it blank.  So what do I choose?
I like my hair better straight.  I change my mind daily on shoes.  I love spaghetti but since it's all I've been eating since Saturday (college students and left overs) I would rather have eggs.  I prefer chickflicks to freezing outside at an ultimate frisbee game that I'm not even playing in.  I hate blank walls, they're boring and make me feel claustrophobic.  I love pictures and quotes an words, so I cover my wall with them.  And that's just the beginning.
Every day I make the little decisions and they fill my life.  So why would I want to make the big ones? The important ones?  Why can't somebody else make those?  I don't want to be blamed if something goes wrong.  I don't like the pressure.  I just wanna be me.  That's all.  I want to write, I want to listen to music, I want to take silly pictures with my friends, I want to smile and laugh and make everybody happy.  Can't that be enough?
When I was a little kid it was.  But not anymore.  Now I'm grown up.  I'm at college.  I'm making my own decisions, everyday, every hour, every minute, every second.  Should I go on the date?  What should I make for dinner?  How in the world am I going to pay for everything?  Am I fitting in?  What can I do to make friends?  Who likes me for me, all my baggage attached?  Who won't judge me?
What should my major be?  Right now I have Psychology declared, but that's so not for me.  After taking Psych 111 this semester I think I've decided to go another way.  Interior design?  Human development?  I guess we'll see next semester when I have a class for both of those.  Oh and another thing-AM I GOING TO PASS BIOLOGY?!
I have enough decisions and choices and things to think about already.  I don't want to add to it.  Want to make me happy?  Don't always make me choose.  I realize that sometimes I need to and should and that it's good for me.  But sometimes, sometimes I don't want to.  And I think that maybe, just maybe, that should be enough.  One day I'll make important decisions, but that's when they're really truly important and I know for a fact what I want.  So please be patient with me, I'm trying.  But I'm trying to be me, not just what everyone else wants from me.  So maybe I'm not perfect, but that's okay with me.  I'd rather be me  than perfect any day.