Headed Home

I'm sitting in the Seattle Airport right now.  I have lots going through my mind right now and very little at the same time.  Not sure if that makes sense but that about describes how I feel right now! I really already miss my roommates and friends and feel like I'll be coming back again in 3 weeks to them like I did over Christmas.  But, it's different this time.  I know that I'm not coming back to hardly any of them.  I said my goodbyes last night and this morning and it still just feels so bizarre.  I think it's still sinking in, but I don't think I like the feeling very much.
Freshman year was everything I was expecting and everything I wasn't, all at the same time.  I made some incredible friends, some of the best I've ever had.  And they've all touched my life in ways I can't even begin to explain or help others explain.  All I know is that I don't have regrets about this year.  And I'm so glad that the people I met were put in my life.
On my way to the airport my grandma and I were talking about my first year of school.  She told me that I've grown up and matured a lot sine I came to college.  I guess I hadn't thought about it much until she said that. I feel like the same me I've been all along, but at the same time I can see exactly what she means.  I've changed some this year.  Or perhaps a better word is I've grown and expanded my view and ideals on life.  And I absolutely love it.
This school year I learned how to snowboard, learned to try new foods, learned to get along with people you don't know, made awesome friends that were girls, started to blog and journal, indexed names for the first time ever, lived on my own, paid for my expenses, got a job for next fall on my own!, dyed my hair dark brown, and became closer with my family.  Those are just a few things that I can think of off the top of my head in the small amount of time I paused to reflect.  Boy do I have a lot to be grateful for!
As far as my fall/winter job down at school.... I emailed my interior design professor asking her if she was looking for a TA.  Unfortunately she will not be returning to BYU this year, but she referred me to another teacher who will be teaching the same class.  I got the text as soon as I landed in Seattle that she would like me to be her TA! Yay! Now to just work out the details and not stress about finding a job during the summer or when I come back because I'll already have one.  That is a huge sigh of relief, let me tell you!
Well, there's less than an hour till I'm supposed to board now and I think I might start reading the book that Mom gave me to read on my way home.  I spent the whole last flight rearranging and organizing my Itunes (it was in a lot of need for some help haha) and then I got some food in the airport for lunch.
Ketchikan in just over 3 hours! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!